These lines of text once scribbled upon the cement walls of my cavernous abode, now mechanically reproduced, are the drug-induced, psychosis-riddled reflections of my drifting memory.

Scrolling down you will find my notes, catagorized and displayed in the order they appeared upon the recordings.

We should all be ashamed.

The Recordings

Transgression LP, produced by Secluded Records at Mother Ship Terminal. Copyrighted 1998. All rights reserved.

All lyrics by Thomas and music by Seclusion-18.

wickedness

murdering criminals beasts of rage altered society in a fascist age. innocent children asking, why is this world caught up in lies? wicked souls of this wicked town listening to the wicked sounds echoing through the horrible streets striking fear in those it meets induced vomiting social ills business-like hysteria thinking kills commercialism promotes this shit �beautiful paradise� makes me sick wicked souls of this wicked town listening to the wicked sounds echoing through the horrible streets striking fear in those it meets

blasphemy

gluttony - consumption of delicious delights

instrumental

greed - tax collector

don�t give me your anger don�t give me your pleas hush that mouth of yours and drop to your knees you�ve paid your taxes, you�ve paid your fees that�s not enough anymore to quiet my needs i�m the piggy that steals your bread i�m the one that�s in your head i can see what you can�t find all the things you�ve tried to hide don�t give me your worries don�t give me your pain control that mind of yours or wind up slain you�ve paid your fines, you�ve paid your dues that�s not enough anymore to brighten my blues i�m the piggy that steals your bread i�m the one that�s in your head i can see what you can�t find all the things you�ve tried to hide i�m the greed, unsurpassed no longer subject to the mass democracy, uncontrolled systematic mind control

fall into slumbertime and never again wake up the morning�s sun has broken my eyelids are sewn shut for years living like this with no one to share my love the rats are my companions and my world is my drug don�t take pity on my soul this is what i want to lay here on my death bed and just waste away that drop of happiness i once used to have has all but dried up replaced by this death wrap a void has become my mind absent of all but sorrow thoughts like the sand on the winds of morrow don�t take pity on my soul this is what i want to lay here on my death bed and slowly waste away

lust - carnal pleasures

dirty little whore, you turned your tricks dirty little whore, you sucked their dicks dirty little whore, you gave good head dirty little whore, you fucked them dead death is coming, stalks your life ashen skin and sunken eyes touch of cold you will feel then you�ll be food for flies between your legs burning warm incubate the eggs of worms divide the flesh and you will find the seed that�s left was mine dirty little whore, you turned your tricks dirty little whore, you sucked their dicks dirty little whore, you gave good head dirty little whore, you fucked them dead

pride - self

i want all that you can give everything and more i want all the gold you have until you are poor i want to take your mind and throw it away i want to take you soul and flush it down the drain i can give you everything everything you want i can give you anything anything and more all i ever want from you is for your love all i ever ask of you �be my puppy dog� i want to hear you scream scream in pain i want to see you cower cower in fear i want to abuse your body do what i will i want to show you pleasure pleasure that is real i can give you everything everything you want i can give you anything anything and more all i ever want from you i for your love all i ever ask of you �be my puppy dog�

envy - jealous heart

i see the things that i cannot have and it makes me sad inside the thought of joy it brings to you and the pain i wish i had the blood rushes to my head and boils above the degree heating the furnace deep inside fueling the jealousy forgive me if i covet the things that you possess forgive me if i wish my life was full of bliss i envy the family that you have the love you have for each other the life you live with that wife makes me desire your lover it seems you rub it in my face exploiting what you own i�m sorry if i hate you laughing when you�re alone forgive me if i covet the things that you possess forgive me if i wish my life was full of bliss forgive me,... forgive me,... forgive me,... forgive this jealous heart

wrath - burning

the pain i relinquish the torture you�ll feel the world will drop and beg me to heal it�s war-ravaged wounds the screams i hear i smile at your misery knocking at your door burning hands of anger wrapped around your throat squeezing every ounce of will making your body choke visions of agony images of death blistering thought with your every breath pleas of forgiveness tears of crying eyes morbid, putrid flesh carcass for the flies burning hands of anger wrapped around your throat squeezing every ounce of will making your body choke

unwanted desires

I am weak, a coward hiding in shadows watching you. starring at you. thinking of you. can you hear me? my heart's for you. i hurt for you this pain's for you. i will control you will make you mine are you afraid? do you fear me? i am your stalker your unwanted desire i am your fantasy i am your dream i am your desire i am your need i will fulfill you i will make you whole i will give you the stars the entire world do not reject me do not fear me i am your lover the only one that cares do not leave me do not deny me i am your stalker the one that sees you there you are my life you are my queen you are my fantasy you are my dream you are the spark that lights my fire you are the passion my forbidden desire. do not reject me do not fear me i am your lover the only one that cares do not leave me do not deny me i am your stalker the one that sees you there i am listening i am watching i am here with you i am here... i am here

Deluge EP, produced by Secluded Records at Mother Ship Terminal. Copyrighted 1997. All rights reserved.

All lyrics by Thomas and music by Seclusion-18.

epilectic flashback

tests the razor on her leg waiting until the shriek subsides the epileptic on the bed curves back, clutching her thighs we mock ourselves with falsehood find ourselves involved, disgraced call witness to our morals appreciate our lack of taste i saw myself or was that god and saw the skull beneath the skin and the breathless creatures underground they leaned back with a grin i saw myself or was that god and saw the skull beneath the skin and the breathless creatures underground they leaned back with a grin we mock ourselves with falsehood find ourselves involved, disgraced call witness to our morals appreciate our lack of taste

warmed over

fell back into my baby�s arms i�ve been away for so damn long occupy the space left behind i can�t remember the last time i felt wanted, so damn good but now i�m falling into this hole i should get out, don�t know if i could without you i have no soul you�re warmed by another one�s touch i think i�m crazy but i miss you so much you�re warmed by another one�s heart i once had you but now i�ve blown the part last night i saw you standing there sorry i could not help but stare you�re an angel with golden wings around my head a tarnished ring i felt so lonely, so damn scared i know i�m falling into this hole i should get out, don�t know if i care without you i have no soul but you�re warmed by another one�s touch think i�m crazy but i miss you so much but you�re warmed by another one�s heart i once had you but now i�ve blown the part

love

she passes through my mind just a glimpse makes me stir makes me want to put a piece of me inside her intertwine our bodies wrap us up in flesh smother her with kisses put our love to the test is it true love you fear? is this love i feel? is this love for real? will this love really last, or fade in to the past? drench me in sweat that pours from you skin your sweet smell of nectar makes me wanna sin our bodies collide as your mind explodes your muscles quake as my love is exposed is it true love you fear? is this love i feel? is this love for real? will this love really last, or fade in to the past?

embrace

the moon above in the sky of blood, casts a silver light. twelve tolls are heard from the clock tower, as she unlocks the night. descend into the darkness and forget about your past. let down your disguises and take off your mask. descend into the misery that grips at your heart; wash away the sorrow and fulfill your part and, dance, dance with the devil. feel my glance, the glance of the devil. embrace my warmth. the dim stars, they shine and fade away bearing mute witness like the grains of sand, so is her time goodbye, innocence descend into the darkness and forget about your past. let down your disguises and take off your mask. descend into the misery that grips at your heart; wash away the sorrow and fulfill your part and, dance, dance with the devil. feel my glance, the glance of the devil. embrace my warmth.

one day

one day, i will tell you how i feel one day, i will show you what you steal one day, i�ll give you everything one day, is too far away for me why must you belong to someone else? you techno-music, drug goddess those brown eyes set in a beautiful face reddish-brown hair as its frame you�re in my thoughts and my dreams i awake and think it�s such a shame one day, i will tell you how i feel one day, i will show you what you steal one day, i�ll give you everything one day, is too far away for me everyday i watch you through the window drive-thru, handing food out to with a smile a smile I want to kiss to fuck you in the back room with ronald watching crazed i awake and think it�s such a fucking shame

what does it mean?

i lie here and i dream about the worlds i�ve not seen i close my eyes and sleep about the love you have for me what does it mean, when you say i�m yours? what does it mean, when you say what�s yours is mine? i sit here and wonder about what you really think i drift off in thought about the love you have for me what does it mean, when you say i�m yours? what does it mean, when you say what�s yours is mine?

puberty

you showed me your love and i ran away you began to weep because i wouldn�t stay i am a boy not a man i don�t quite know what it is to love someone else so deeply to have emotions quite like this i read comic books and play video games no time to worry if i feel the same tiny lights upon the road showing me what�s been shown leaving me so confused blurred lights, black and white all the time - day and night no real reason why i refused can�t comprehend what you say to me like a movie sequence of some trippy dream i�m an actor and you the actress you expect a romantic scene after all of this tiny lights upon the road showing me what�s been shown leaving me so confused blurred lights, black and white all the time - day and night no real reason why i refused